It's not that I don't have feelings for the victims of all this fucking calamity, it's just that I need very much, for my own mental health, to find a way to cope with all of this fucking crap. It isn't easy for me because I see it plastered all over my Facebook page from my friends and fellow bloggers.
I have tried to dismiss the carnage by posting funny stuff for everyone on my blog and Facebook page in hopes of keeping myself as well as others spirits high. That there is goodness out there in this world dumb fucks who think that killing and maiming are the order of the day.
I'm tired ... almost to the point of tuning out completely. Every day I do what I need to do for everyone on the web I put on my brave happy face for David, kiss him goodbye as he goes to work and then I cry and scream at the walls and ask why? Right now I'm millimeters close to quitting.
I wish I had a funny blog post today but it's just too hard for me to cope right now. I'm so sorry I'm letting you all down. I'm just so sorry.